Before I Die

[Chorus: Tori Kelly]
All the times I have laid in your light,
When your love kept me safe through the night,
All the time, I was sure you were mine,
And before time demands our goodbye,
Can you sing me a last lullaby?

[Verse 1: Professor Green]
It's been a while since I last dreamt,
Barely remember what it's like to dream,
Findin' it hard to get to sleep, too stressed,
And there ain't anyone to sing a lullaby to me.
Pretend shit doesn't get to me,
And I suffer in silence when I'm hurtin',
A man's problems are his own,
And it's my burden.
Tossin' and turnin', tryin' to get to sleep,
But I find it hard to switch off when my mind's workin',
I ponder on things I shouldn't bother with,
Off the rails, my train of thought's wanderin'.
Sick of pretendin' to be so happy
All the while my anxiety eats away at me,
My skin crawls, I look up to the sky,
And it falls, the walls close in, and it's
As if all the good in my life disappears
In an instant, happiness is so distant,
So seein' the ones who I love, the ones who love me,
But I don't wanna tell ‘em how I feel in case they judge me,
It's just me, wish I could let somebody in,
But I ain't ever been too trustin'.

[Chorus: Tori Kelly]
All the times I have laid in your light,
When your love kept me safe through the night,
All the time, I was sure you were mine,
And before time demands our goodbye,
Can you sing me a last lullaby?

[Verse 2: Professor Green]
I've barely had any sleep when I get up,
Sick of all these nightmares and these night terrors,
Like it's only when I'm leathered that I sleep better,
Might sleep better when I get up?
I'm weak it just makes my day harder, I wonder if
It would've been any different if I had a father that I knew?
Could it have helped shape the way that I grew?
But the point of things I never have went from
Bein' a reason for the things that I do
To just bein' an excuse that I'd use.
I've gotta take responsibility for the things I do,
Find something other than negativity for my fuel,
But I feed off it, even when I don't seem bothered
I hide everything that's goin' on inside.
Guess, it's been a while since I've been honest, I need help,
But I deny it and even lie to myself like I'm fine.

[Chorus: Tori Kelly]
All the times I have laid in your light,
When your love kept me safe through the night,
All the time, I was sure you were mine,
And before time demands our goodbye,
Can you sing me a last lullaby?

[Bridge: Professor Green]
I just wish someone would tell me it would be OK,
But pessimism leads me to believe that it won't.
To see even a glimmer of hope in the darkness
Is hard, and depression is a slippery slope.
I don't wanna do what my dad did with a rope, though,
So I carry on, even though it's hard to.
The only thing that's definite is death and things always change,
As long as you give ‘em a chance to.

[Chorus: Tori Kelly - 2x]
All the times I have laid in your light,
When your love kept me safe through the night,
All the time, I was sure you were mine,
And before time demands our goodbye,
Can you sing me a last lullaby?