Distant Memory

Oh distant memory, where have you been and gone
 As I turn back to see, you're still not there with me
 I know you'll never come and I will live with that
 But if you one day come, I'll no longer be the one

 Wait in line this fight is mine
 Trust my words it's not your time
 Feel my rage to go run and hide
 Hate yourself you have no pride

 I said some time ago I'd be the first to leave
 And when it all went wrong I had myself to blame

 I can't take it when I need to take it
 I an wanting everything I'm so alone
 To wait for you is all that I can do
 I need to be with you or die alone

 What's alive and what is not
 To be real comes down to how you feel

 Now I paid for my mistakes again and again, too long to understand
 But when that's said and done, I have myself to blame

 Cos I can't see it when I want to see it
 I am needing everything I'm so afraid
 To seek the truth is all that I will do
 To think you would stay and feel at home

 Wait for me, just stop the time
 Left to prove you have no pride

 I can't watch all this, I hate to know the truth
 So tell me finally what do you want?
 To dream of you is all that I can do
 Something you'd never do in all your time

 I can't take it when I need to take it
 I am searching everywhere, I'm so alone
 To wait for you is all that I can do
 I need to be with you or die alone