Tongue-Tied

Last night I dreamed that you were dead
The only way that I could find
to clear you from my head

I find it hard for me to get past all the [bad word] you did to me
In spite, at night, I try in vain to get my mind at right

Tongue tied
I feel so terrified
I’m so sick of being on my own
This feels like suicide
Tongue tied
I feel so dead inside

Some things are better left alone 
Completely out of sight in mind
Never to be told

I find it harder to express the things 
that no one else can see, but me 
sometimes I wait for days to get my mind at right

Tongue tied
I feel so terrified
I’m so sick of being on my own
This feels like suicide
Tongue tied
I feel so dead inside
Struggling me in a world I can’t control
This feels like suicide

Some say waiting 
Taking my own time
Is all I can do
Should’ve known you’ve things to hide
By that look in your eyes
I can hear the words (loud)
Now I finally understand
This feeling of uncertainty that leaves me now

Tongue tied
I feel so terrified
I’m so sick of being on my own
This feels like suicide
Tongue tied
I feel so dead inside
Struggling me in a world I can’t control
This feels like suicide 
This feels like suicide 
This feels like suicide