Social Caterpillar

It’s not for nothing but I’ve seen a transformation,
like I consider my happiness for thefirst time in ages. 
You might say I’m off, butit’s the first time 
I’m feeling on.

Don’t worry,I still get dizzy in the usual situations. 

Most people I know I’ve used as camouflage. 
I’ve circled myself with pretty people to hide who I was.
I won’t miss them and they won’t miss me. 
I’ll tie in those loose ends,
a string is just the thread to separation. 
I’ll retire these old clothes to brace for a wardrobe that no
one knows.

Don’t worry, I still get dizzy in
the usual situations. But it’s those instances
I have used to ground me on occasion.