The Drug (Part 1)

7 AM and I'm walking again
Back to bury myself in the snow
With a part of me gone and its hard to hold 
To a person that I used to know
And it kills me inside I am buried alive
I am nothing but flesh over bone
But I can't think about I'm not going to change
I'm better off being alone
Better off being alone

The [bad word]  the [bad word] is what understands me
Silence stole the voices in my head
Drink myself to death on cocaine candy
Twenty one gun salute when they find me dead
When they find me dead

In the back of the house with a gun in my mouth
And a mirror in front of my face
I have looked for a reason just one simple reason
For why I am worth being saved
But I'll never get out so I put the gun down
It's a slow suicide that I choose
So I give in again I sit down and breath in
I don't care about what I will lose
What I will lose

The [bad word]  the [bad word] is what understands me
Silence stole the voices in my head
Drink myself to death on cocaine candy
Twenty one gun salute when they find me dead
When they find me dead

I feel like this will never end
The curse will never end
More than air I need
You must believe I need the [bad word] I'm always on [bad word] From the addict I've [bad word] More than air I breathe
You must believe I need the [bad word] 
I need the [bad word] You must believe I need the [bad word] I need the [bad word] You must believe I need the [bad word] 
The [bad word]  the [bad word] is what understands me
Silence stole the voices in my head
Drink myself to death on cocaine candy
Twenty one gun salute when they find me dead