Slaughterhouse 5

I dressed myself for my own funeral tonight. C'mon
Tonight I drink myself into a [bad word] coma,  [bad word] this [bad word] world, each day I am growing colder. 
Tonight intended to be the end of everything me. 
My blood is burning through my veins so [bad word] urgently.

Im decomposing and Im not even dead. 
This body's breaking down until it is shed. 
My chest, a coffin, closed where you used to be. 
Time heals nothing, trust is so [bad word]  you're dead to me.

Trust is so [bad word] Believing is just another word for self-defeat. 
Nothing you give will ever mean a [bad word] thing. 
Disappointment is certain. So, I fall to my knees. 
I've been beat down by life with every breath I breathe.

Night after [bad word] night, knife at my throat. 
Endless [bad word] tears for you, I've lost all hope. 
Night after [bad word] night, knife at my throat. 
Endless [bad word] tears for you, I've lost all hope. 
Night after [bad word] night, knife at my throat. 
Endless [bad word] tears for you, I've lost all hope. 
Night after [bad word] night, knife at my throat. 
Endless [bad word] tears for you, I've lost all hope.