Pity Party

Yes I'm giving up this time.
I'm done with falling behind.
Nothing that I seem to do ever makes the grade.
They said it was just a phase,
one day i would grow to make my parents proud.
They didn't know what they were talking about.
Being at the end of my rope really doesn't seem that bad,
but I must apologize I'm sorry mom and dad.
Don't look down on me too much,
but this charade has got to stop,
that's the only way for a guy like me to ever end up on top.
So right now it's party time,
kicking back with glass in hand,
bouncing up and down floors 'til I can't stand.
And outside it starts to rain, 
glass falls from the window pain,
and you just sit in awe...
cause it's never the right time to make that change in your life.
Anxiety takes hold of me...
so i just let go.