Pressure Cracks

I feel like I've been breathing out of an exhaust pipe on the job site
with a fist full of bridle sand
should of seen [bad word] a mile away from that little hill in which I'm making a stand on
it makes a man of me (doesn't it)
and if it never kills me then I get it pass
wish I coulda open up the air around me just a little bit so I can take a gasp
who the [bad word] is watchin,
put a notch in
my belt
keep it on the track
shoulda woulda coulda never made a difference where you're playing chicken with your only chance
but it made a man of me
right! mad man gotta dance around and playing sounds
wish I knew back then what I now
ya look at me now

dodge it forever
spending a fortune to figure it out
I don't believe it
never learned how
all of this pressure is driving me wild
look at me now
2x

I'm starting to feel like it's stacking on my shoulders another solider with little patience to see the dawn
fought a lot of odds in the name of cause put them in a box buried in the lawn
but I learned a lesson from didn't I and if I didn't who the [bad word] is gonna teach me
I've been looking for answers and none of em ever offer the lesson that will reach me
who can see me losing personal relationships like people do their house keys
I've been outside looking inside with a shadow casted all around me
and they doubt me
try to throw a little part of me away with every frown
just wish they saw what I know now
ya look at me now

dodge it forever
spending a fortune to figure it out
I don't believe it
never learned how
all of this pressure is driving me wild
look at me now
2x
(then 2x again)