Heather Nicole

At night in my window I see a silhouette
 Crying heavy tears look how wet my pillow gets
 Throughout my days I don't smile I just get upset
 And since you left look at all the [bad word] that it affects
 I take a picture of your face and I just hold it up
 Kiss it, then reminisce on when it was both of us
 It's hard for me to open up, I'm always talking to myself
 But to nobody else
 Some say that church or maybe counseling could probably help
 But they don't know about all of my idiotic lies
 All the [bad word] times I left you traumatized
 Swore up and down to you saying I'm a try
 And never did, I try not to cry but I feel bad I didn't apologize
 It's time I cough it up and tell more, my soul is taken never sell yours
 I did some [bad word] I probably coulda been in jail for
 Bury me deep inside hells core
 And don't let me out until you hear bells roar

 She said, you never loved me
 You just controlled me
 If you [bad word] around I'm calling the police
 But all I wanted to say was I'm sorry
 Oh how I wish that could tell you
 You're gone, you're dead, you'll never know that I was sorry
 Just leave me alone, stay out my head, I wish that I could tell you
 You're gone, you're dead, you'll never know that I was sorry
 Just leave me alone, stay out my head, I wish that I could tell you

 It's hard to forget, my heart is a brick
 I tell myself Marcus, I thought that you were smarter than this
 The mess I put you through was worse than pearl harbor and [bad word]  I'd always harm you and flip, mentally scar you and trip
 Sometimes I'd argue and get, the nerve to call you a [bad word]  Then bruise your back against the dresser that I tossed you against
 My Juliet at the time I never thought you was it
 I do now but [bad word] your gone, so I just offer you this
 song to you, through it I open the crack in my chest
 And show the whole world I've always had a lack of respect
 For women who went to my life, I look to vengeance as knife
 Intentions to fight, if you thinking I was senseless you right
 Now every sentence I write, I think twice on it so I don't regret
 Cause only stress lies in a simple mind of loneliness
 I'm an unholy mess, put me in a hole to rest
 Welcome to my life this is how painful my stories get

 She said, you never loved me
 You just controlled me
 If you [bad word] around I'm calling the police
 But all I wanted to say was I'm sorry
 Oh how I wish that could tell you
 You're gone, you're dead, you'll never know that I was sorry
 Just leave me alone, stay out my head, I wish that I could tell you
 You're gone, you're dead, you'll never know that I was sorry
 Just leave me alone, stay out my head, I wish that I could tell you

 Now use this track as a lesson
 All you guys out there who have some aggression
 Towards your woman it don't have to get hectic
 That [bad word] is pathetic, now look at me I have to regret it
 I can't go near her or nothing, she'll probably have me arrested
 The only thing I could do is just make a track with a message
 And hope she hears it so she could know I was badly infected
 I never meant to be that type of guy
 But I realized that I was, and because of it I'm throwing my sinister life aside
 I can cry at any moment just thinking about it
 Sometimes I hide it from the folks that I'm hanging around with
 I should apply for a new soul cause I think it's invalid
 Somebody told me when I die I'll be safe but I doubt it
 The grudge she holds against me, it hurts me so severely
 She won't come near me, I thought that time was supposed to cure me
 I'm so alone and weary, writing songs to heal me
 I swear that I'm sorry Heather, I mean it so sincerely

 She said, you never loved me
 You just controlled me
 If you [bad word] around I'm calling the poli