Fragile Idol-Worship

hatenaki, jimon’jitou
ikudo naku ikudo naku

kotae no denu toi wo
dare ni demo naku nagetsukeru

tsugeru wa kanawanu to.
kokoro no uzumakaseta mama,

ima wa tada, waratteiyou
…subete wa ano kata no tame.

sono mimi wa kikoeru ka?
kono kokoro no otakebi wo.

sono chikara wa sagaseru ka?
kono kokoro wo umeru tedate wo.

“seigi to wa, nan’ na no da?”
“kono watashi to wa nan’ na no da?”
“shin’ naru to wa, nan’ na no da?”
“zen’ naru to wa, nan’ na no da?”

agametatematsure
watashi wa yorube to natta
yobu nara “guuzou” to,
sore ga motto mo fusawashii.

isshin’ ni.
　shin’zuru monotachi ga iru nara.
　　　　　　　isshin’ ni.

sono inori wo.
uketomeru.

sore ga “gi” de nakute
nan’ de arou ka!

da to [bad word] 

hito yo shire
sono awaseru ryou no te ga
buki wo tori,
itsu shika yumi hiku you ni naru no da to.

dou ka shire
sono tataeagameru mono wa
katsute osore,
fuujita mono yori mo jaaku na no da to.

hito yo shire
sono jiai michiru egao wa
ikutsu mono
mienu kanashimi wo haramu no da to.

dou ka shire
sono hitamuki ni sasageru guuzousuuhai ga
kakumo moroku,
tomo sureba ayaui mono nano da to.

“inori to wa, nan’ na no da?”
“sono sukui to wa, nan’ na no da?”
“ja naru to wa, nan’ na no da?”
“zen’ naru to wa, nan’ na no da?”

“seigi no daiben’sha”

sono jitsu, sagishimagai no

watashi no, kono egao ni,

nan’ no imi ga aru to iu no ka?

hisshi ni.
　sukui wo motomeru on’jin’ no koe ni.
　　　　　kotaezu ni.

tada tatazumu.
nani mo dekizu.

sore ga “fugi” de nakute nan’ de arou ka!

da to [bad word] 

shin’jitsu wo tsugeru koto nado
deki wa sezu.
tada, hito no agameru
“kami” to [bad word] tatazumu nomi de.

son’na omoi wo,
mune ni dakinagara tsukurou
kono egao ga
uso de nai hazu ga nai to…

hito yo shire!

inori wa,
kakumo moroku.
kakumo yowaku.
kakumo hakanaku.
kakumo usuku.

watashi wa,
kakumo fujitsu.
kakumo fuson’.
kakumo [bad word] 
kakumo fujou.

…de attemo,
hito wa shin’jitsudzukezu ni wa, [bad word] ni susumenai no da to [bad word] 
semete waratteiyou.
yorube to narou.

watashi wa tada, ano kata no tame ni.

aa, itsuka, hito yo shire.

-watashi no, koe wo [bad word]