Beneath The Exterior

now I feel my tears shredding through my skin
my convictions seep into my open wounds
as the idea you've pressed on me
are the fears that I bury within my
distorted thoughts as this [bad word] down
my [bad word] face
images of your impulsive greed shreds my existence
as your hands give life to the razors that
slice my violated throat
how [bad word] that nightmare you so willingly
helped me fall in debt
to what appeased you?
answer me that
piece by piece it slowly deteriorates
my sanity if any is left