Where are my fucking pills?

'Where are my [bad word] pills?'
Paranoid, so paranoid, shut it out, I'm on [bad word] 
I can't deal with the pains in my head.
Medicate the suffocation with [bad word] arrogance.
I'm in love with a suicide
In too deep is just a state of mind.
Self-sedation is my [bad word] 9 to 5
With a death obsession working overtime.
I can't get clean, some scars won't leave, I [bad word] clean.
Paranoid, feed the [bad word] low, I'm so [bad word] weak.
 [bad word] gets real when your friends end up dead.
Lying in a puddle on the side of the bed.
But nothing says I love you like a capital crime.
I'm praying for injection instead of 25
I can't take this [bad word] noose on my neck.
Barbiturate, Percocet, caffeinated suspect
I'm in love with my suicide
Playing the victim is such a waste of time.
Medicating to keep yourself alive
Autopilot [bad word] sick kicks into overdrive.
I [bad word] clean, I [bad word] clean.
Paranoid, just feed the void, shut it out, this mic's set to stun.
I can't deal with the pains in my head.
Medicate the suffocation with [bad word] arrogance.
I'm in love with a suicide
In too deep is just a state of mind.
But I [bad word] clean,
You can [bad word] me.
Rest your hopes on my lips and taste my venom
Let my sorrow weigh you down and feed upon you.