You Are Not My Friend [Poem]

You don't write, you don't visit or call. You just sit on the sideline and watch me fall. 
You never cared what I had inside, it never occurred that I had something to hide.

Selfish and stubborn, it was all about you, none of those feelings we had would prove true. 
You ignored me in life when things got tough, and forgot about me when life got rough
You see me in public, you smile and pretend but I know where you'll be when this story ends. 

I fell hard, in the dead of the night, but what do you care, it wasn't you, right? 
I've succumbed to my demons, I gave up control. I find myself lost in this deep dark hole. 

This isn't me, this wasn't my fate. I'm slowly becoming this man that I hate. 
What happened to dreams and good times to come, now all I have left are my memories of fun. 
This is not the life I thought I would live and i have so much left inside me to give! 

Its so dark, I cant see the light, I sit here and tremble, captured by fright. 
Totally aware of whats going on, knowing whats right, doing whats wrong, spinning a tale as I go along.

master at lies I twist the truth and write off my failure of as a story of youth. 
The excuses sound strong but they don't carry weight, trying my hardest to deny this fate. 
But this won't due, this cant be the end, this road called life has at least one more bend. 

So I stand up, all by myself, get out of my way, I don't need your help.
I'm coming out swinging and Im making my stand, its time to start living the life that I planned. 

I'm gonna channel this rage, time to turn the page, watch me now as I make the world my stage
It's time to shine, this is my reprieve, determination is all that I need. 
This hole that I'm in wont be a trend, the world WILL listen to the message I send

Ill get to the top, I won't be denied, you'll never hear, "oh well, he tried"
I'm not turning back and I'm not giving in, life doesn't owe me so ill fight for MY win! 

No one can stop this path that I'm on, and I won't get mad when you're singing my song.
I'm done living this lie, so please don't be surprised when I dust myself off and pass you right by
So don't reach out, and please don't pretend, get out of my life, you are not my friend.