I kinda suck

I always say nothing when I, I should have said something 
I always say nothing when I, I should have said something 
Cause I couldn’t think of the right thing to say 
No, I can never think of the right thing to say 

I spend most of my days paralyzed by 
Fear, shame and anxieties 
I doing it right? Probably not. I’m probably not 
But I’ll be damned if I’m not trying 

Depression is my oppression and it trumps all the rest 
I’d be content to die right now if I knew I wouldn’t be missed 
But I know I’d be missed 
At least I know I’d be missed 

I’m terrified of all the kids I went to high school with 
I’m scared of what they think of me now 
Do they respect me? Do they like me? Do they hate me? Do they spite me? 
They probably just don’t think of me at all, they don’t think of me at all 

And I know I should care more about 
How I think and feel about myself 
But I just want to serve and I don’t want to serve myself 
Cause I’m a lost cause and you are a lego box 

So tell me what to do and I will appease you 
I just want to please you, I just want to please you 
I just want to please you, I just want to please you 
I just want to please you, I just want to please you 
Because if I can’t be happy, at least you can be 
Since I can’t be happy, will you please be?