Sayoko

There's nothing left to take, but I still try to reach. 
Try to swallow it all down, yet I can't seem to breathe.
Just a single pill of mine, nothing else would suffice 
I take it in, now i'm alive. 

My phone is set on lock and I don't really care.
There's a tangle and a knot that I cannot repair.
I'm a tragedy, I'm ugly, I'm trying to hide, 
I say "Hello" then wave "Goodbye".

See me fall down,
Let me die here,
Slowly.

Nothing goes right.
Not a trace
Of honesty.

I'm to blame
So I'll remain.

'Black', 'White', 'Day', 'Night' 
It's all the same. 

See [bad word] down,
Cut away, 
No worries. 

Say no more, 
I can surely say that i've "had enough"  
I still refuse to believe.

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Everyday would be the same, 
Nothing more;
Little change.

If I cared, it would mean nothing,
It's all such a pain.

Friendly bonds are so uneeded, 
I don't give a [bad word] 

busy life,
is what I am.

Could it be, that 'family' was a way of escape?
Didn't know if it was right, so I threw it away

Couldn't take it anymore,
I had taken enough. 
So then I hid my need for 'love'.

Lay me right down, Let me sleep,
I'm restless.

Cover my eyes, when I'm up
I'll finally,

Fade away.
Here. Today.

Give me a reason, 
Then i'll stay.

If I could fly,
If for only a moment.

There wouldn't be, such a need for casualty. 
I'm alone, 
And that is how it'll be. 

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Why does everything I do cause tragedy?
Why does everyone I know keep leaving me here?
Why do I feel so empty inside?
I only want to die...
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See me fall down,
Let me die here,
Slowly.

Nothing goes right.
Not a trace
Of honesty.

I'm to blame,
So I'll remain.

'Black', 'White', 'Day', 'Night' 
It's all the same. 

See [bad word] down,
Cut away,
No worries. 

Say no more, 
I can surely say that "I've had enough". 

I can't remember...

That very day,
That very day, 
Changed me.

Happiness died,
Like a light,
I carried. 

I'll sleep tonight,
And hope to finally leave.. 

world which I don't believe..

life which I don't need..

Now, I'll finally be free...