Abstract Nonsense

Assuming, joking, [bad word]  I can hear them so loud 
They're gonna really make my whole mind wanna explode. 
No matter what I do and ever try and wanna [bad word]  
This fighting fantasy

My ears are picking up another kind of [bad word] talk 
This girl you see is just a monochrome puppet now
She's moving by a string cuz she can never stand on her own. 
Keep changing symphony 

Ah, rate me and judge, that's all that you can do 
Ah, make me and break me, now just put my worst year on repeat

It's all so meaningless, why can't I stop it then? 
Throwing just my head from out the glass
It's all so tiring, I'm so sick of this
But I can't dare myself to die! 

It's all so meaningless, why can't I stop it then?
Wrists are getting sore from stabbing in
It's all so tiring, I'm so sick of this
I'm just giving up and eating cake in the mean time

All that I ever see is people being hung up so high, 
And even though their screws are never ever ever too tight
And everyone is hiding secrets, under half hidden mask
Build your friend factory

I follow [bad word]  rolling tongues are plagued lies. 
Didn't you know, this girl's a media monkey now
She walks a path of the empty lies to never show her [bad word] smile 
What a worthless industry 

 [bad word] here my dear; don't worry you'll be fine
Ah, how many times have I now killed myself It never ends!

It's all so meaningless, why can't I stop it then? 
Stabbing my chest [bad word] from pain
It's all so tiring, I'm so sick of this
Now I think that I can take no more
It's all so meaningless, why can't I stop it then? 
Drowning even deeper in the pain 
It's all so tiring, I'm so sick of this
Only way to end is throwing me into [bad word] 

Ah, beg and then crave, how desperate am I now? 
Ah, see and believe, this harm can't be undone; it's killing me!

It's all so meaningless, why can't I stop it then? 
Even if I try [bad word] away
It's all so tiring, I'm so sick of this
I can't get away, I'm stopping now 

It's all so meaningless, why can't I stop it then? 
Aim a gun at my head soon to blow
It's all so tiring, I'm so sick of this
Even now I know it's just a thought but

It's freaking with my head, Just crying in the end
No one's gonna help, I know that well
My voice cracking kinda now, Sing it anyhow
Please don't look at me I'm just a piece of trash to you now

If rain could just wash away my sin