Lost / Alone

I cannot sleep, 
nor can I breath 
I keep falling 
I keep falling 

Repeat the same torture again and again 
again and again. 
Set me free 
before my demons overcome me. 

All these feelings are foreign 
and I hate to feel this. 
I hate to feel me, 
I hate myself 
and I begin to hate the world around me 
and I always swore myself 
to never feel like this 

Look me in my eyes 
tell me this is real. 
Look me in my eyes 
can't you see how I feel? 

This won't be everything 
this won't be all I give 
how can I crawl back 
how can I crawl back by myself? 

I'll force you to cut your name on my chest. 
Life got it's meaning on the day 
I looked in your eyes for the first time, 
life lost it's meaning on the day 
you said goodbye. 

I lay down on my rooms floor 
pretending to be in your bed 
with your head resting on my chest 
how we used to. 

I am still questioning myself 
was it all worth it? 
Was it all worth it? 
What if this story had a different end? 
different end.