Bury Myself Alive

Day after day I dig further down this hole that I have made, 
And i don't know if each fistful 
I take brings me closer to a goal or to a grave. 

I'm in the black hole that you left me in,
Digging to try to leave you behind. 
I'm in the black hole you left me in, 
Trying to get you out of my mind, before I bury myself alive. 

I am the prey, swimming circles in a fishbowl on display. 
And I'm stuck here always, in a [bad word] to breathe 
Under an avalanche that won't stop falling. 

I'm in the black hole that you left me in,
Digging to try to leave you behind. 
I'm in the black hole you left me in, 
Trying to get you out of my mind, before I bury myself alive. 

Does this hole 
Lead straight to [bad word]  cause I'm falling 
And all I know is lost under a black hole