Monochrome

[bad word] /kafkafuura [bad word] 2012/10/07/monochrome

hiza wo kakete yubiori kazoeteru
kanaerarenai nuritsubusareta yume
jaguchi nejireba nagaredasu mousou
karakara no nodo nomikomenai serifu

Clutching my knees I count on my fingers
All my dreams, blacked out, that can never come true
Twisting the faucet, delusions pour out
Words that my dry throat cannot swallow

kon’na omoi wo dare ga rikai dekiru to iu no
hajime kara odorasareteita dake dakara
harimegurasareteku ito wo sen’ wo ten’ wo
tsumuide hodoite marumete joudan’ janai ya iyaiya…

Are you saying that someone else can understand how I feel?
From the very beginning I’ve just been made to dance this way and that
All of these strings and threads and points strung about me,
Weaving and unraveling and balling up – Don’t play with me!! No.. No..

yasashiku shinaide

Don’t be kind to me!!!

furihodoite furihodoite
namida no uzu nomikomarete
don’na ni tada negaou tomo hibikanai utagoe
dare no tame ni nan’ no tame ni
watashi wa iru wasuresasete
koko ni iru no doko ni itemo
dare demo iin’ dakara

Shaking this off here, shaking that off there
I’m swallowed in a whirlpool of tears
No matter how much I wish and plead my voice does not sound
For whose sake, for what reason?
I here? Please let me forget!
I am here, but no matter where I am…
It doesn’t matter who it is…

tsume wo tatete wa hada ni ato [bad word] imashime ni [bad word] son’na watashi ni tada negau basho kara sukasuka no kotoba wo
poroporo koboshi waratteiru dake ne

Sticking my nails into my skin I leave a mark
As a warning to myself, while you just smile from the place I desperately wish to be
Pouring empty words over me…

kon’na omoi wa dare mo rikai [bad word] kara
todoiteru furi wo [bad word] kitai wo saseteru
don’na ni saken’demo oto mo uta mo koe mo
nagete yugan’de kuzurete joudan’ janai ya iyaiya…

I don’t want anyone else to understand how I feel, so
I pretend those words reach me, and carry on your expectations
No matter how I scream, every sound, every song, every voice
Crying twists and crumbles – Don’t play with me!! No.. No..

yasashiku shinaide mou subete

Don’t be kind to me!! Please… everything is…

furihodoite furihodoite
namida no uzu nomikomarete
don’na ni tada negaou tomo hibikanai utagoe
dare no tame ni nan’ no tame ni
watashi wa iru wasuresasete
koko ni itemo shosen’ wa tada
yumemonogatari dakara

Shaking this off here, shaking that off there
I’m swallowed in a whirlpool of tears
No matter how much I wish and plead my voice does not sound
For whose sake, for what reason?
I here? Please let me forget!
Even if I am here, after all this is
Nothing more than a dream…