A Serious House on Serious Earth

You had a heart of gold
I know because I [bad word] sold it
 [bad word] be told
I couldn't even say what I did with the money
Heads are like that
At least for me when I try to think back

This is where I'd ordinarily
Check the room for special distortion
Stare at the moon and cherish the feeling
Eat my words and choke on the meanings
Stoke the flames and burn like I mean it
This is where we lost our memories
This is where I long to be

Here I am
This walking sum of your disappointments
I made peace with that
When I let all the feeling out
I can do that much
But I can't stop the bleeding
Speak in code
Spin the wheels til we bend the spokes
Shake up these tired bones
Make a point and drive it home
You're cool as a heart attack
I can't move so I can't relax
Some things you can't take back
Not now
Not [bad word] ever

I've got a heavy soul
Right now it's like a [bad word] boulder
All I know
There's not too much more I can shoulder
Fill my lungs
And cough til I'm heaving
Spill my guts
And just [bad word] leave them