Beyond My Reach

I'm traveling trough emotions 
Trough sickness and fear 
Decided now that I´ll stay low, 
To know I'm still here 
I'm trying to conform so,
That I might appeal 
And I cling on to my only hope 
That life isn't real 

And I can't deny 
I´ll wait the day I die 
When I´ll seal the gates 
To the secrets 
Beyond my reach

I wish that I was pretty
I wish I was cool 
I wish I was an astronaut 
Instead of a fool 
Decided I won't be sad 
Make sure I won't cry 
Can’t fail to find my happiness ´cos I never try 

Well I can't deny 
I´ll wait the day I die 
When I seal the gates 
To the secrets 
Beyond my reach 

I'm sending all my loving
Just to myself 
I'm trying to ignore those facts 
That its not worth to spell? 
Collecting all my troubles 
In brown paper bags 
Convinced myself that they are gone, 
If not who cares?

Well I can't deny
I´ll wait the day I die
When I´ll seal the gates
To the secrets 
Beyond my reach 

I wish that I was pretty 
I wish I was cool 
I wish I was an astronaut 
Instead of a fool
Decided I won't be sad
Make sure I won't cry 
Can’t fail to find my happiness ´cos I´ll never try

And I can't deny
I´ll wait the day I die 
When I´ll seal the gates 
To the secrets 
Beyond my reach