I Only Miss You When I Want To

I only miss you when I want to. I only miss you when I see you. But I can't stop seeing you around, I only miss you. But I still came off fighting when I was strong, and I always start fighting when I am wrong. But I'm always wrong, I only miss you. But I always find myself just fighting myself. I'm everything that never should have been anything. I'm a failure and I want to die in a way that I can be immortalized with all my sins behind me. But you caught me when I was running; you took me away from everything. I can't do this everyday. I'm looking for a way to say that I'm looking for a way to stay. So just stay the [bad word] away.