Apparition

Apparition is the name
Of a friend
Who goes away in the end
You are my cancer and
You kept me going and
All this time all I could do
Was feel you and touch you
And feel the blackness of your skin
It became the blackness of your heart
Inside you would laugh
And I would have to laugh

 [bad word] 
Ha, ha ha ha….

You're my cancer

All this time I thought that you were
The same that you were just stubborn
That you hadn't changed and you had changed
Back into what you used to be
Into what you said you'd never be again
And here you go again spinning round and round