茫然自失

Saa minna mimi wo katamukete kure sukoshi iiwake wo [bad word] da
Utsu muita mama demo me wo [bad word] mama demo ii kiitekure sukoshi dake...
Kigatsukeba jiga to iu kara no naka de kurakute nanimo mienaku natteitan'da
Itsumo nanika ni oware yokkyuu sareru koto no kurikaeshi daremo waratte kurenaku natteita
Sorya sou sa atarimae daro omae wa subete hitei [bad word] fumitsubishita uragitta

Aa subete muni mokushi konton no naka de genjitsu ga mienu
Aa boku wo saegiru mono kattou no naka no genjitsu ga mieru?

Aa... uta ga utaenaku nari hajimete [bad word] jiga no oroka
Aa... nanimo utaenaku nari hajimete kizuita tsumi no omoki
Aa... subete ushinatte konton no naka no genjitsu ga mieta
Aa... [bad word]  [bad word] boku wa sore ni kizuku koto dekinakatta no darou

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Everybody listen to me,
I have some apologies to do.
Even if I look down,
even if I bend my eyes,
listen to me only a little...

I realize that inside my shell
I couldn't see anything,
I was always chased by something
Repeating the things I wanted
I wasn't able to laugh anymore..

It was like that, it's obvious.
You betrayed and trampled and denyed everything.

Ah in this blind chaos I can't see the reality.
Ah can I see the reality inside this conflict that obstruct me?

Ah...the first time I recognized my foolishness I couldn't sing anymore.
Ah...the first time I noticed my faults I couldn't sing anything.
Ah...I saw the reality, in the chaos I lost everything
Ah...why, why did I never notice all this before?