#3

your diamond desires are
turning back into coal
you can't pick yourself
up off the floor
and somehow everything's
on me
when mutual pity walks
out the door
you know it's time to
follow
cuz I'm not sorry you are
utterly alone
i remain unbroken
though we existed in our
own dimension
slouching twisted at the
television
finally broken-hearted by
what we'd made
no, no, no
i'm not crawlin
i'm not crawlin to you
never crawlin, no, no, no
oh it feels so good so far
inside myself
someplace you have never
ever been
sleeping free, dreaming
clean
not to pretend is the
greatest relief
now I've been digging in
the dirt
planting myself, my hands
they smell of earth
I will be growing alone
and away
this I know for sure
if I touched you now
think we'd
both disintegrate
sift through blades of
stinging grass
before dribbling through
the grate
in each of my hands I
hold love and hate
i'll fall underground now
and happily I'll stay
i'm not crawlin to you
never crawlin
no no no, no no no
i'm not crawlin
i’m not crawlin for you
never crawlin
no no no
i’m not crawlin
i’m not crawlin
i’m not crawlin
i’m not crawlin