Always The Runner

I´ve got this big hole in my head and I filled it with things that don't belong there 
 I´m always the runner 
 even if you create a home for me. 
 And then I dive into something that I really don't know anything about Just give me a kick man so I know what its all about cause i´m always the runner 
 I´ve got this strange feeling inside my chest but I won't let anything get in I´m always the runner and spring is the one who saves me from darkness