So Many Tears

So Many Tears
I shall fear no man, but god
Though I walk through tha valley of death
I shed so many tears
Please God walk with me...

Back in elementary, I thrived on misery
Left me alone I grew up amongst a dying breed
As my mind couldn't find a place ta rest
Untill I got that thug life planted on my chest
Tell me can ya feel me ? 
I'm not liven in tha past, ya wanna last
Be tha first ta blast, remember kato
No longer with us he's deseased
Call on tha sirens, I seem him murdered in tha streets
Now rest in peace
Is there heaven for a 'g' ? 
Remember me, so many homies in tha cemetary
Shed so many tears


Chorus
Lord
I suffer through tha years
And shed so many tears
Lord
I lost so many peers, shed so many tears

Now that I'm strugglin' in this business
By any means, label me greedy gettin green
But seldom seen
And [bad word] tha world cuz I'm cursed
I'm havin visions of leaven here in a hurse
God can ya feel me ? 
Take me away from all tha pressure and all tha pain
Show me some happiness again
I'm goin' blind
I spend my time in this cell, ain't livin' well
I know my destiny is hell, where did I fail ? 
My life is in denial
And when I die, babtised in eternal fire
Shed so many tears...

Chorus
Lord
I suffer through tha years
And shed so many tears
Lord
I lost so many peers, shed so many tears

Now I'm lost and I'm weary
So many tears, I'm suicidal, so don't stand near me
My every move is a calculated step
Ta bring me closer
To embrace an early death now there's nothing left
There was no mercy on tha streets
I couldn't rest
I'm barely standing, bout to go to pieces, screaming peace
And though my soul was deleted, I couldn't see it
I had my mind full of deamons tryin' ta break free
They planted seeds and they hatched sparking tha flame
In my brain like a match, such a dirty game
No memories, just misery
Painting a picture of my enemies killing me in my sleep
Will I survive till' tha morning ta see tha sun
Please lord forgive me for my sins
Cause here I come...


Chorus
Lord
I suffer through tha years
And shed so many tears
Lord
I lost so many peers, shed so many tears

Lord knows I've tried, been a witness ta homicide
Drive-bys taken lives, little kids die
Wonder why as I walk by
Broken hearted as I glance at tha chaulk line, gettin' high
This ain't tha life for me
I wanna change
But ain't no future right for me
I'm stuck in tha game
I'm trapped inside a maze
See this tangaray influenced me ta gettin crazy
Disillusioned lately
I've been really wanting babies
So I could see a part of me that wasn't always shady
Don't trust my lady
Cause she's a product of this poison, I'm hearen noises
Think she's [bad word] with my boys, can't take no more
I'm fallin' to tha floor
Beggin' for tha lord ta let me in heavens door
I shed so many tears...


Chorus
Lord
I lost so many peers
And shed so many tears
I lost so many peers, shed so many tears
Fades...
I suffered through tha years and shed so many tears