[bad word] tristfulness

[bad word] tristfulness

deep engrained lust for possession.
Modern sundowns break me.
I like to watch things burn down, soft and gently.
I need to watch her abused till I'm satisfied.

Never.

See tonight through bloodshot eyes.
I'll wait till you can see me here.
Left so long alone.
Undressed tonight, forsaken skin.
You mean nothing, nothing.
No you mean nothing to me.

Won't you feel bad while you're thrashing out?
Makes me feel sick to know she's had enough.

Time and time again.
You see tonight through bloodshot eyes.
You mean nothing, nothing.
No you mean nothing at all.

I'll never say a word of this I swear, I swear.

Never.

I hope you know,
I live tonight through methadone highs.
This life is over.