Sitting here stressing at 2:30am

Sitting here stressing at 2:30am 
About how fast the year can go 
I wonder where it went 
If we start all over again, would it really work 
I know that you could be, could be, coming back to me 

Mesmorised, but of thoughts of fear 
Traumatised, Im so scared to feel 
Wanna stop thinking gotta get to sleep 
Gotta wake up fresh, get on my feet 
Push the thought of you away 
Do it today 

Im older than my years 
Drowing in my tears 
Surrounded by the fear 
Since you went away, a year ago 
At Christmas 

You locked away your secrets 
Kept them away from me 
I only came to say goodbye, now you finally see 
You wanna start all over again, make it work this time 
But I dont wanna end up feeling far away from fine 

I memorised, what you said to me 
So surprised, it was hell to be 
So frustrated with the way we were 
Not a single word could make it work 
Now look at us today 
We blew it away 

Im older than my years 
Drowing in my tears 
Surrounded by the fear 
Since you went away, a year ago 
At Christmas