Purple Heart

My purple heart, all red and blue*
Still lingers on the thought of you 
Thou it's just a little stain 
I was hoping it would fade by now 
Thou it's over done and said 
It's heavier than lead somehow 

It lights a spark, leaves a residue 
It burns in me, all the embers of you 
It's a darkest lullaby, tucks me in but still I lie awake 
'Cuz that morning sun will rise 
And I hope I'm not the same as yesterday 

You would think that I'm okay from the outside looking in 
Yes I'm hard on myself but that's just the way I am 
So I put it in a box and I keep it locked away 
For as long as I can 
I picture you alone and you're picking up the pieces 
I know I let you down 
But I swear I had my reasons to let you go 

But I'm just stuck with this purple heart, all red and blue 
Still lingers on the thought of you 
I know you can't forgive but I don't want to regret 
The life I would have lived if I didn't say the things I said 

I'll surrender to this purple heart 
It's no longer pumping red, this purple heart 
The darkest shade of blue, this purple heart