Waltz of Anomalies

Nani mo ki ni [bad word] nai you na kao de watashi ga tada warau karatte 
Ano hi no koto o zenbu nani mo kamo wasureta to demo [bad word] no 
Kizu o [bad word] hou wa sugu ni wasurete mo 
Kirareta hou wa zutto wasurenai 
 [bad word] itsuka atama ni kogetsuite kuroku yodonda mizu wa tamatteku

Tatoeba kimi ga nozomu nara watashi o subete kaitai [bad word] agemashou 
Ude mo  ashi mo  kami mo  [bad word] mo  mune mo  mimi mo  hana mo  yubi mo 
Kokoro sae mo subete nokorazu

Dakedo watashi ga kono yo de ichiban nani yori mo hoshikatta mono dake wa 
Kimi no tatta hitokoto de konagona ni kudakechitte hai ni natta

Watashi wa sore shika iranai no

Saa 
Odorimashou yoake made tsukare hatete [bad word] made 
Douse kono kokoro wa kimi ni wa nani hitotsu todokanai 
Ai ga hoshikute aisou warai yume ga mitakute fuminshou 
Betsu ni nani mo kanashiku wa nai yo 
Nee  sou desho

"Moshimo kono yo ni [bad word] ningen ni wa nishu [bad word] [bad word]  
Hitsuyou na hito to sou ja nai hito ni [bad word] [bad word]  
Watashi wa zensha de [bad word] jishin ga mou kagirinaku zero ni chikai no de, 
Semete tada hitori dake ni hitsuyou to [bad word] hito de arou [bad word] "

Sore sura umaku ikanai mama

Sou 
Kurikaeshi kurikaeshi nando mo [bad word] 
Mohaya gucha gucha de mechakucha de [bad word] no mo iyake ga sasu 
Soredemo kono kokoro o hikizutte [bad word] yuku 
Kawari nado doko ni mo inai yo 
Nee  sou desho

Nante zankoku na sekai deshou 
Dare mo ga shiawase o motome 
Mujun darake no [bad word] o 
Itsumademo odotte yuku

Saa  
Odorimashou yoake made tsukare hatete [bad word] made 
Douse kono kokoro wa kimi ni wa nani hitotsu todokanai 
Ai ga hoshikute aisou warai yume ga mitakute fuminshou 
Betsu ni nani mo kanashiku wa nai yo 
Na no ni nazeka namida ga [bad word] yo 
Nee  oshiete

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Just because I'm smiling as if nothing bothers me 
Do you think I've forgotten everything that happened that day? 
Even though you may forget about it right after hurting someone 
The one you hurt won't ever forget it 
And then some day, it will burn a hole in my mind  and the black, stagnant water will start building up

For instance, if you wish  I will disassemble my whole body for you 
Be it my arms  my legs  my hair  my tongue  my chest  my ears  my nose  my fingers 
Or even my heart, I won't leave a single thing behind

But what I wanted the most in this world  more than anything else 
Was broken into pieces and turned into ash just by a single word from you

Even when I didn't need anything but that
 [bad word] on 
Let me dance until the day breaks  until I fall asleep with exhaustion 
Because my heart won't ever  reach yours, in any case 
Desperate for love, I force a smile  hoping to dream, but insomnia is [bad word] 
Though I'm not exactly sad about anything 
Hey  isn't that right?

"If there were two kinds of humans living in this world, 
One is those who are needed and the other is those who aren't, 
My confidence in being the former is already infinitesimally close to zero, 
So I tried to [bad word] someone who would be needed by just one person, at least."

But even that doesn't go very well

That's right 
Again and again, again and again  writing it over and over again 
It's already so messed up, so wrecked up  that I feel disgusted just looking at it 
Even so, I will drag along my heart  as I continue walking on 
Because there is no possible replacement 
Hey  isn't that right?

What a [bad word] world this is 
Everyone yearns for happiness 
And forever dances 
waltz full of contradiction
 [bad word] on 
Let me dance until the day breaks  until I fall asleep with exhaustion 
Because my heart won't ever  reach yours, in any case 
Desperate for love, I force a smile  hoping to dream, but insomnia is [bad word] 
Though I'm not exactly sad about anything 
For some reason, my tears still fall 
Hey  please tell me why