Bother

Wish I was too dead to cry,
the self-affliction fades,
stones to throw at my creator, [bad word] to which I cater.

You don’t need to bother
I don’t need to be
I’ll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on I won’t let go ‘til it bleeds

Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed i cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me [bad word] to digest
I wish I had a reason
My flaws are open season
For this I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

You don’t need to bother
I don’t need to be
I’ll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on I won’t let go ‘til it bleeds

Wish I died instead of lived
The zombie hides my face
Shelf forgotten with its memories
Diaries left with cryptic entries

You don’t need to bother
I don’t need to be
I’ll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on I won’t let go ‘til it bleeds

You don’t need to bother
I don’t need to be
I’ll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on I’ll never look down my deceits