A Million Exploding Suns

I've forgotten who I am I'm
Sick and weak and fresh from sleep
I crawl from a crooked bed
With dirty feet and shaky hands
The numbers on the clock read
One-one-four-oh ay em
I've got time to clean myself
Then sell my soul again
When I sleep I dream
I dream I am awake
Or was it when awake
I dream I am asleep
I work I [bad word] I eat I sleep
I'm inspected by the number seven
This can't be my life
No this isn't me
I don't know whats beset this change
I barely recognize my own face
In my mind something's just not right
But in my heart I'm bathed in golden light
Bathed in GOLDEN LIGHT!
Bathed in a GOLDEN LIGHT
My eyelids still heavy my pulse still faint
I'm puzzle pieces- my memory's stained
I feel strength swell a day dream
I'm shaking under this duality
My pulse is still faint
I hear a strange voice but know what it's saying
AND IN THIS MOMENT
Seconds stop and I BURST with clarity
weath of love and hate-- gone blank
For I finally remember MY [bad word] NAME!
I EAT ROCKS
AND I BREATHE WIND
IVE BEEN AROUND THE WORLD
AND BACK AGAIN
I've lost the static
And the grey is gone
I've got the power of
MILLION EXPLODING SUNS!!
I AM CONSUMED BY MY MIGHT
BLINDED IN LIGHT AS I WOULD BE IN NIGHT
THIS VOID IS HOLDING ME TIGHT
IT DOESN'T FEEL RIGHT
When will I ever break FREE
Within or without I'm chained by the dream
THE VOID IS HOLDING ME TIGHT
IT DOESN'T FEEL RIGHT
When will I ever break FREE
Within or without I'm chained by the dream
The void and the light are both me
IT DOESN'T FEEL RIGHT
Now bright lights flood my eyes
It's [bad word] I realize
The perilous [bad word] of a perilous life
By my own device
The strength of my high is the strength of my low
Unless theres no me
They both
THEY BOTH EXPLODE