Everything Is Wrong, Everything Is OK

Dark spots spread all over my body
And their motions branded my skin
Oh I have tried so long to get ready
But stones covered the way so I gave in

What have I done wrong?
I tried to be breathing
But I could not achieve it anymore

Waited for words [bad word] out of my head
And wasted thoughts on to retire
Oh I sometimes wished I was dead
But my mind works against my desire

What have I done wrong?
I tried to be breathing
But I could not achieve it anymore
What have I done wrong?
That all is pulling me down

Meaningless apologies tried to make me think
That everyone [bad word] away from the same things
Meaningless apologies tried to make me think
That I could leave right before it begins

I always knew we would fall apart
If we don't [bad word] 
Erasing the last spark
Remaining in our hearts

What have I done wrong?
I tried to be breathing
But I could not achieve it anymore
What have I done wrong?
That all is pulling me down