I don't know how to love Him

I don’t know how to love him,
What to do, how to move him.
I’ve been changed, yes, really changed.
In these past few days, 
When I’ve seen myself, 
I seem like some one else.
I don’t know how to take this,
I don’t see how he moves me.
He is a man, he’s just a man.
And I had so many men before
In very many ways
He’s just one more.
Should I bring him down,
Should I scream and shout,
Should I speak of love
Let my feelings out.
I never thought I’d come to this all
What’s it all about.
Don’t you think it’s rather funny 
I should be in this position.
I’m the one who’s always been so calm, so cool,
No lover’s fool
Running every show. He scares me so.
Yet if he said he loved me
I’d be lost, I’d be frightened.
I couldn’t coop, just couldn’t coop.
I’d turn my head, I’d back away, 
I wouldn’t want to know.
I want him so,
I love him so.