On A Plain

I'll start this off without any words
I got so high that I scratched 'til I bled 
I love myself better than you
I know it's wrong so what should I do? 
The finest day that I've ever had
Was when I learned to cry [bad word] 
I'm on a plain
I [bad word] 
My mother died every night
It's safe to say, don't quote me on that 
The black sheep got blackmailed again
Forgot to put on the zip code 
Somewhere I have heard this before
In a dream my memory has stored
As a defense I'm neutered and spayed
What the [bad word] am I trying to say 
It is now time to make it unclear
To write off lines that don't make sense 
One more special message to go
And then I'm done then I can go home