Fingers.voice.heart.shake.shake.shake

why? oh why do i make you cry the way you haven't cried since then when your
heart was trembeling? you just say that i don't see anything. i guess it would
hurt like knives to say that you are just too shy to tell me that you don't want
me around, atleast for awhile. only if you could see it was not them but me who
broke the last two pieses of your heart. a heart so fragile. a heart so caring,
so caring that you forgot to care for yourself instead.
(for over a year ago i did something really stupid, i guess. a close friend of
mine really took it in a bad way. the thing is that no-one acually told me what
i did wrong. i didn't really see it back then and all the time after what
happened i had to have bad cauntions and feel sorry and mean for something i
didn't really understand because no-one wanted to talk about it. i dont' think i
have really gotten over it yet, although my friends and also the person who got
reeeeally down by what i did seams to have forgotten or forgived me now. but i
haven't i don't think i ever will, 'cause how everbody treated me back then was
to me a big question. i had no-one to talk to so i kept feeling bad even though
i didn't acually understand why.)