Derelict (feat. Matthew Youkhana)

Heretic.

Everyday was exactly the same, I was alone in my thoughts as everyone pushed me away.
I cried out for help, but no one cared at all.
It’s not for attention; it’s not for a trend.
Can someone tell me: will it ever end?

I can’t take anymore it’s too hard to [bad word] ignore.
Four years a coward but nothing has changed.
Give me the chance and I would spit in your [bad word] face.

Who the [bad word] do you think you are?
Making me believe I’m not the same as you want me to be.
I can’t take anymore.
I’m trying to escape forever, but my sanity [bad word] short.
Someone save me cause I can’t break free.
Four years trapped inside these walls with no hope at all.

There’s no hope at all.
There’s no hope.
As the years have gone by,
Four years a coward I have realized.
You’re all [bad word] pathetic.
Take off your crowns and just [bad word] admit it.

Can’t you see where I am now?
Four years have passed and I’m living a dream.
But you’re still trapped in your cliques,
Embedded in [bad word] 

I can’t [bad word] breathe.
Stop talking about what I really wanted to [bad word] achieve.
Mother, [bad word] what you think.
How do [bad word] with opinions?
gat to your teeth, [bad word] back, and I squeeze, [bad word] 
How do I succeed? Must suck being me.
Sucks being you tied up to a chair right now about to die with your heart full of greed.
Just listen to me. Yo, pull up [bad word]  You got advice to give when your life is [bad word] 
You ain't wise living a lie. Envious mind, justify why in life you quit.
You’re miscarriage, misfire, [bad word] man with heart full of fire, picking on the people with a dream to aspire.
Lights out, [bad word]  I’mma shine, be quiet.