Dear God

Why is the sky so blue?
Why are the trees so green?
Why clouds exist?

Where did all [bad word] from?
The nature, planets, universe
It makes me wonder

The things that I see and feel are they real?
It's so hard for me [bad word] what life is all about
In the middle of the chaos where's the [bad word] 
Tell that to me dear god

I just your puppet or
Do I have a will of my own?
I'm asking now

And tell me why a four year old dies in cancer?
Please explain that to me

What's the reason for all this suffering?
Did you just [bad word] things up
Or are you there at all?
Why would we need you anyway?
Tell that to me dear god

Maybe all this is in vain
You're not there so I create my own world
I leave all [bad word] to you
I don't try to save the world anymore
Do you hear me you [bad word] 
Give me some answers and stop hiding!
I just an air molecule to you?
What are we to you? Just ants?
What are we doing here?