Dashie

I hate this so much.
This situation.
I saw it coming.
So why did I keep you near?
Why?
Maybe... this wasn't the best decision after all, hm...

(0:28)
I just couldn't sleep that night
I laid awake in bed
Contemplated all the things you said
Called fate out, I'm like "what the heck?"
I can't keep pace, so I kneel forward 'n beg to God
You're so far out, [bad word] these legs I've got
I need wings so I can fly instead
All my limbs might as well be dead
God [bad word] it, I wish I could grow a pair

(0:43)
Far worse pains in the world out there
Forests flames blot the evening air
Oppressed crying out with screams of despair
Yet all I care about is to be in your lair
Why did God bring you into my life
Only to have my heart split and sliced?
Don my façade to keep happy and nice
But in reality, I'm crying hard deep inside

(0:58)
I wanna forget all of our days
If it spared me the pain, I would even erase
Every memory cherished, every thing we've made
But nothing undoes the legacy you've created
Every day I'll always see the same sight
The ship that woulda been about a dozen a ride
Infinite colors, yet an orange light
No Photoshopping could make this look right

(1:13)
No photos shot could bring you to my side
I wish I could be with you when you are tired
No need for you to clean the bathroom tiles
We wouldn't even have to hide our files
But even if we had to hide our existence
At least what we had coulda kept on existing
I'm missing a part of me I wish I could fill in
And so I return to the world I've been killing

(1:28)
The one I woulda lost that night
Looking back on all those times
When the world tried to keep me happy
Earth so scorched yet smiling gladly
The one I started taking for granted, sadly
The one I loved so much, it was almost campy
The one I lived so much in, like always camping
The one that brightened me and kept me laughing

(1:43)
I wonder if I made the right reactions
Living through each day, double checking my actions
'Cause I wonder if I screwed the last ones
At a glance you'd think I don't know who I'm after
And I'm trying to write a new chapter
Trying to keep movin' forward and faster
But I don't know if I'm going to last
So please God, again carry me through the sand

[Instrumental interlude]

(2:28)
I just couldn't sleep that night
I laid awake in bed
Contemplated all the things you said
Called fate out, I'm like "what the heck?"
I can't keep pace, so I kneel forward 'n beg to God
You're so far out, [bad word] these legs I've got
I need wings so I can fly instead
All my limbs might as well be dead
God [bad word] it, I wish I could grow a pair

(2:43)
Far worse pains in the world out there
Forests flames blot the evening air
Oppressed crying out with screams of despair
Yet all I care about is to be in your lair
Why did God bring you into my life
Only to have my heart split and sliced?
Don my façade to keep happy and nice
But in reality, I'm crying hard deep inside

(3:12)
No photos shot could bring you to my side
I wish I could be with you when you are tired
No need for you to clean the bathroom tiles
We wouldn't even have to hide our files
But even if we had to hide our existence
At least what we had coulda kept on existing
I'm missing a part of me I wish I could fill in
And so I return to the world I've been killing