Spoken sideways and indirect

Spoken sideways and indirect
 Without a single word left unchecked
 And by your own admission
 no one is ever above suspicion
 Defenses never to be let down
 The lies readily abound,
 gaping jaw tightly wound.
 In your desolation
 Still searching for nowhere
 Desolation
 You’re living in nowhere.
 Smoking gun, cause and effect
 Paradise lost, a beautiful wreck
 And to you I solemnly swear
 All I ever wanted was away from here
 All that for nothing,
 what a [bad word] waste of time
 I only took what was rightfully mine
 Seek and you shall find.
 The dying man might take you with him
 Until then I’ll split the difference
 All that for nothing,
 what a [bad word] waste of time.
 I’m gonna take what is rightfully mine.
 All that for nothing,
 what a [bad word] waste of time
 The dying man might take you with him
 I swear to you I’ll split the difference
 All that for nothing
 what a [bad word] waste of time.