What If I

days pass and i wander alone
i'm tryin to find my way
they think that i'm livin in the wrong
well i got something to say
and we will always be the same
even though we constantly change

 [bad word] lovers, i hate this [bad word]  it only hurts now
just another relationship that doesn't work out
 [bad word] it, you make me sick, i let the word out
fall in love with a crazy [bad word] your heart will burn out
blood pressure bubbles up, what the [bad word] i feel stuck
i cannot touch another one of these antidepressants
man this can't be the message, somebody hand me a lesson
cuz i'm standin here stressin, when i'm plannin my death and
this might be the last minute that i stand on this planet
look at me stranded i'm panickin man, i can't understand it
my life as a manic depressant, but i managed to stand
until i land in the hamptons i'm with standin the damage
so i gotta calm my nerves and take a deep breath
cuz i will never learn unless i take each step
cuz i'm feelin stronger now
feelin stronger now

days pass and i wander alone
i'm tryin to find my way
they think that i'm livin in the wrong
well i got something to say
and we will always be the same
even though we constantly change

there ain't a way to fade away so take away the razor blades
it ain't safe to say to make you pain will take the pain away
there's greater ways to change the page and everybody hates to say it
but you gotta tame the rage you been sayin you ain't gonna make it
oh it's hard i know that it's hard
you can't [bad word] no one and your covered in scars
there's knives in my back with my friends names on them
we try to relax but the pain [bad word] 
i'm outta the track while we try to stay on them
you lied in the past while we remained honest
we tired of this [bad word] we're just tryin to make dollars
we grind for this cash while you try to hate on us
everywhere i go i know they wanna fight me
even though they dont know me they don't like me
they think that i'm terrified i just hold my head up high
if they wanna [bad word] with me just know that imma let em try

days pass and i wander alone
i'm tryin to find my way
they think that i'm livin in the wrong
well i got something to say
and we will always be the same
even though we constantly change

these words will break that
i will not live this down
these words will break that
i will not live this down

i bet you wanna know what i'm feelin like
while i'm sittin here spinnin these rhymes
well if you wanna know what i'm feelin like
i feel like im the best of my time
i took my heart and i locked it up in a safe
with a straight face and threw away the key
now that i know my heart is in a safe place
there's not a single thing that you can do to me

days pass and i wander alone
i'm tryin to find my way
they think that i'm livin in the wrong
well i got something to say
and we will always be the same
even though we constantly change

you have everything that you need
it's in your arms, it's in your arms
your arms