Last To Know

i found out. that you won't [bad word] home. i found out. that now i'll be all alone. she's taken from me a bit of myself. something that you'll never know. she may never understand. why i conduct myself like this. but that's just how it goes. but now that i'm bigger. i'll withstand the fall. i've been let down. and been taken. and recognize the amount of time. that i wasted. and can't take back. i've been shut down. and thrown around. and don't know what to do. without doing it with downcast eyes