Dilemma

Her eyes are blue like the sea of Aegean
But her soul is so pitchy black
Her voice sounds like the songs of angels
But she [bad word] stabs my back

Her spirit's dark, it is not sacred
But we are unified by fate
Her beauty only veils her hatred
But a Venus сannot hate

She wanted to pretend; to be; my love
But now I understand; I've had; enough
And she desired to use; my faith; for greed
So now I have to choose; new god; for creed

Her voice in my head now echoes
But it's a way to hypnotize
She makes me gladly wear her shackles
But they are not proper size

Her absence for me might be bitter
But now I can't let her [bad word] 
And silver knives in my hands glitter
Out of my life she'll [bad word] 

Her golden regal crown; it fell; can't shine
Her heartbeat quited down; and so; seems mine
Now she will never suck; my blood; from vein
I'm finally unstuck; but it's; so vain