時果つる夢 (Toki Hatsuru Yume / When Dreams End)

https://mirrorofparanoia [bad word] 2012/04/20/toki-hatsuru-yume-denkare/

akatsuki no sora miagete
kodoku ni taete tatazumu

samenai akumu ni nazeka yugande yokokage

donna ni  zetsubou [bad word] mo sabishi sasae [bad word] nobashita yubisaki kimi ni todokanai nara

subete wo [bad word] hitoride kyomu ni kaeru no
yami ni nomare watashi kiete
yagate kuzurete yuku ayamachi

futari de [bad word] ano hi no
toki wa tomatta mada

yuugure toki ni [bad word] asanaikoro no omoide [bad word] kioku ni itsuka hi ga tomoru you ni

kasunda keshiki ga kaze ni hareru you ni watashi no [bad word] kokoro ga sukoshizutsu tokete yuku

subete wo [bad word] futari de ikite yuku nara
kako wo sutete ima wo motome
tometa toki ga ima ugokidasu

subete wo [bad word] anata to futari kaeru no
hitomi tojite yami wo nukete
itsuka yume ni mita ano bashou e

watashi no motometa mirai ga
tatoe zetsubou da [bad word] anata wa watashi no tonari de
hohoende kureru no?

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I raised my eyes, on the red moon in the sky
Alone, I’m still bearing it

I won’t wake up from this nightmare; somehow, a distorted shadow is lying down.

Tell me; how much despair, how much loneliness will I hide
If my fingertips, stretched, won’t reach you?

I’ll break everything, and go back in my nothingness, alone
Engulfed in the darkness, I’m disappearing
Soon, I’ll fall in an error

That day, when we were together
The time seemed to stop

At evening, I talked about
My child’s reminiscences
I’ve lost it in my memories; but someday, a light will shine again, like fire

The scenery blurred; now, it’s like everything’s clear
My shutted heart, little by little, is disappearing

I’ll shut everything; if we go on together, and live,
I’ll throw away the past; I seek the present
The stopped time, now, keeps going on

I’ll forgive everything; and you and I will come back
I closed my eyes; I escaped the darkness
Already, in a dream, I saw myself going to that place

future was my wish
Even if it would have been full of despair
Now that you’re next to me
Will you smile?