Invisible Scars

I hope there is an end of this story, [bad word] 
Everywhere I go, everytime I sleep I go around in the circle, again and again

On my way to a better life, with a free heart, a carefree mind

It's joining me through time and distance, like my [bad word]  shadow

Invisible scars, caused by myself, so deep, deep inside me

I played with the fire in my heart

It has finally caught me

They told me, it's time for change

The beauty enticed me to risk so many mistakes

Why not? Why not? Why not?

The signs were clear, the clouds were here

Who knows? Maybe they're still right, maybe there will be rain again

Maybe I can forget, to forget the sadness

Just another aberration? Just a delusion?

So here we go, round 3, and I'm doubtful again

The shadow of the past so dark, making my life look empty

I hope there is an end of this story

Every night I dream of the love I lived twice

Every morning I wake up with memories of things that never happened

Alone in the crowd, maybe already forgotten

I see the time is working against me

I guess I can't stop this, because it's stronger than me

Impossible to learn the lesson, as long as my heart won't listen

As long as my heart won't listen

The circle holds me back, I am strapped down

Waiting for the day I can break through

The moment I can catch up all the love

Waiting for the day, you aren't just a dream, no!
Ready - go! YEAH!