Soul Search Party

Shivering with you, we shoot our breath into the cold 
We see the shine from a town that sucked the life straight from the desperate souls 
And out in the distance are silhouettes from the headlights 
That brighten up our faces and the tears inside our tired eyes 
And I finally realized that no matter where we go 
We'll never [bad word] find ourselves if we only ever look alone 
We drank too much and here's to us 
'Cause we succeeded in forgetting that we were still alive 
And I lost myself along the way, still got ambitions 
Because hope is the one thing that keeps me going in the worst of times 
I know I never claimed to have a heart of gold 
I haven't been myself lately and I felt so strong a year ago 
Silent cries for help echo through late nights and empty streets 
And I'd suffer out loud but no one would care enough to be listening 
Proving to our heads that our hearts have reasons to still beat 
Is sometimes harder than it seems, so beat some life back into me 
But on nights like this say " [bad word] the world" and pass the drink 
We'll only be alive one time 'til we rot in [bad word] for eternity 
And when I'm burning I don't want to [bad word] regret anything 
So if life's a joke then show your teeth and raise your glass and sin with me