Contemplate

Sadness builds while happiness just passes by
 Violently I still try to relieve myself from the depression why
 So much to live for
 Sooner or later these feelings they will subside inside

 Agonizing over who I am
 In solitude is where I feel I stand
 Take another drink to block the pain
 Swearing at myself for my mistakes
 Will I make it through more years and rise above my fears
 Or will I fall away

 I've tasted the love and the hate
 For this I try to find the right or wrong reasons to die
 Things are difficult now so I contemplate
 And try to find the right or wrong reasons to die

 Several reasons I cannot let go
 For the people that still hold me close
 Life is never really all that bad
 Keep telling myself as I'm looking back

 Contemplate my own fate
 Stuck in this hole
 And now the walls start to close
 I close my eyes
 And scream for my life
 Why?