A Diamond For Disease

In denial of the thoughts that our feelings dissolve

Your words were always chosen wisely, disguising all intent

Amidst the poetry, I thought I heard you say,

"Let's make a deal, a diamond for disease...

Oh, Christ, it's a fair trade! diamond for disease."

Then the promise of never was as embracing as the act of strangulation

The idea of forever became the grandest humiliation

I keep remembering your words, spoken in the guise of an oath, the promise of never

Now never is all I ever receive, never, and the knowledge of your disease

Those two words spoken aloud, I do, the promise of never

Yet I still come, like a moth to a flame in assurance of pain

Still she comes, a breathing deathwish, with daggers drawn

"Let's make a deal, a diamond for disease...

Oh, Christ, it's a fair trade! diamond for disease."

Always denying the idea that the mystery's resolved

Examined closely, disguising all intent

Amidst our screaming, I know I heard you say,

"Let's make a deal, a diamond for disease...

Oh, Christ, it's a fair trade! diamond for disease."

If that's your idea of forever, I would gladly take strangulation

Your idea of forever is the grandest humiliation

Yet I never know how loosely you used the word "friend"

In time I learned, a diamond for disease

This I cannot forgive, but only you know the truth

Your matrimony was silenced

All vows forgotten and the burden placed on me to aid you from the marriage bed

That's when the promise of never became as embracing as strangulation

Your idea of forever, the grandest humiliation

Yet I still come, like a moth to a flame in assurance of pain

Still she comes, a breathing deathwish, with daggers drawn

In denial of the thoughts that our feelings dissolve

Your secrets, they follow, and shadows always show the path to the fallen,

Those liars wielding daggers

Take your skin away, wield the liar's dagger

Because along this path are fragile whispers guiding me with guilt

And though they scream the faintest lies

They lead me to the knowledge that your words were chosen wisely

Disguised was all intent.

Within the deceit, I know I heard you say...

For now, for forever; from the start, this was the deal

"diamond for disease."