The Failure

It all started with a whisper
that followed me home
I felt the vomit trickle off my lips
and splash on the floor

Peering through a broken window pane
I see the shape stand out against the street light
I hear the unfamiliar knocking
Something has gotten inside

In time you'll know you're nothing
Inside you can feel me crawling

My tormentor lives in every shadow
The only way to heaven was to go through hell

As I look up to these stars
So close could almost touch them yet so far
From my sheltered existence
My mind's a feeding ground

It will all end with a whisper as I lose feeling in my face
The clouds open up
I felt the presence of the failures
Eyes always watching and I know it will never give up

My tormentor lives in every shadow
The only way to heaven was to go through hell

As I look up to these stars
So close could almost touch them yet so far
From my sheltered existence
My mind's a feeding ground

You were the only star in this place of ashes
I'm dragging this cross behind me
You watched me wallow in absence
You took me to a place where I could never die

Something has stocked across the boundaries
Through all defenses
And crawled into my thorn-filled cradle
I couldn't change it all for you
You know you can't resist me

If I follow you blindly can you promise me god

As I look up to these stars
So close could almost touch them yet so far
From my sheltered existence
My mind's a feeding ground

I am the voice that reassures you that you're really nothing
I am the spit you didn't have the confidence to wipe off your face
I was there behind her eyes the last time you ever saw her
I was in the walls every night when you cried yourself to sleep

I am the reason you had a face not even a mother could love
I fueled your hate for all those who've left you and I'm not about to let up
I am the Failure
I'll never go away